Mama of 2 P's in a Pod

Most of my blog is about my family. I mean come on, it is called Mama of 2 P's in a Pod. But after some recent thinking and chatting with people close to me, I've decided to blog about myself for a moment. I seem to have lost my center. Perhaps I've never had it in my own possession. I am after all, a people pleaser and a fixer. I want to help everyone and anyone who will let me know. I devote so much time to my family that when it comes down to it, I don't have much for myself. It is not their fault, it is only my own. I can't change overnight, but the time has come to find myself. I know I am around here somewhere. I need to find a way to be true to me, but still be the giver I am. That will be hard. I want to fix some things so very bad, but they aren't mine to fix. I have to step back a little and let those who need to fix them, find their own way. I know we are at 11 months since the fire. And most of everyone we know is over it and expects us to be. I

2015 is here. Much like last year, we were asked to chose a word rather than a resolution to guide our year. Each of us have selected a word. Kris is Better. Piper is Courageous. Parker is Shine. Mine is Best. So I will do my best in all I do this year. So far, I've done my best at staying in PJ"s all day and watching Friends from the beginning on Netflix. We have all been extremely worn down and tired. The girls both have colds that seem to zonk all energy. So we've spent the first two days of this year in PJ's and watching movies, shows etc. Kris came home this morning and went straight to bed, after fighting a big fire downtown. I know it wasn't just physical exhaustion that sent him to bed. Fighting fires has taken a whole new meaning now. Speaking of fire. Our fire still haunts this house. I know we are at the 10 month mark, but being home is strange. It is a house, it isn't quite home yet. So part of Operation Best, is finding my best way to make ou