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Hope

Two weeks ago tonight I had just tucked the girls in for bed and settled down to read before Kris came home from a shift on the ambulance. I had spent a little time snuggling with my 4 legged boy and contemplated letting him crash in our bed. But selfishly I opted to let him sleep in his kennel and said to Kris that I would have him snuggle with me the next night when K returned to the fire station. I wish now that I had him snuggle with us that night, his last night on Earth. I had no idea what would transpire the next day. I had no idea that our whole life as we knew it would go up in smoke. There are moments when I get overwhelmed with sadness and regret and throw in the what ifs. But the what ifs are what keep me going. I try to remember that when the girls get grumpy or fight with each other. I know their whole world has been turned upside down, everything they loved, hoarded, played with and held close to their heart, is gone. Presents from 5th birthdays, favorite books, toys,