Mama of 2 P's in a Pod

fire·proof [fahyuhr-proof] –adjective 1. resistant to destruction by fire. 2. totally or almost totally unburnable. –verb (used with object) 3. to make fireproof. I like to think of this term when it comes to my life now, particularly my marriage. Kris and I went to see Fireproof the movie last weekend and it has changed my outlook on how I treat my husband and who my husband is supposed to be to me. It sounds a bit cheesy to some to have a movie become a tool to keeping a marriage on track, but as my pastor says, God uses whatever he can to get through to us, and that indeed includes a movie. I won't go into detail or hash out how life has been for us for the past few years, but I will say this. Life is changing and for the better for our family. Its a bit scary, but so exciting and so rewarding. There is a promise in our house that hasn't been there for a long time. So go out and see this movie and maybe it'll speak to you in a way you never imagined. http://www.firepro...

Here we are in October, one of my most favorite times of the year. There have been so many Octobers where I let life just pass me by. I can't even recall some of the Octobers of my life, I was too wrapped up in whatever. This October is different for so many reasons. I've come to realize what life is truly about. Its not about filling your life with empty, materialistic joys. Its not about keeping up with a neighbor, a friend or a family member. Sure, they may look like they have it all, but deep down, they're fighting their own battle. And its certainly not about focusing on how bad you messed up the past. Its about realizing what you have right there with you, whether it be a healthy child, a supportive parent, an amazing friend or the love of your life. What you have at this moment, is what you're meant to live for. You may not have that chance later in life, so enjoy the now, plan for the future yes, but enjoy those moments you let slip by too often. So that focus h...

Wendy sent me this saying I've been tagged and had to answer these items on my blog, so now all of you who read my words get to put up with this! Enjoy! 10 years ago I was : 1. Dealing with a scary health issue. 2. Getting ready to meet the man I would marry. 3. Enjoying life as a student, and working two jobs! 4. Thinking my intern job at a TV station would lead me to ESPN! 5. Just beginning to understand life as a woman. 5 things on today’s to do list: 1. Try to focus on my To-Do list at work. 2. Run some errands during my lunch hour. 3. Make a list of things to focus on for my new life focus...(sounds weird but its a good thing) 4. Come up with something to make for the bonfire tomorrow night 5. Pick up the P's from daycare and enjoy the Lazy Friday night with them! 5 snacks I enjoy: 1. Cheese 2. Fruit of any kind 3. A few oreos dunked in milk courtesy of the P's 4. My mama's chocolate cake straight out of the oven sans frosting 5 . All of a sudden I'm hungry for...

......a day makes. I was so wrapped up in sadness and fear yesterday. Today, I have hope, for myself, for the P's and for whatever our future may hold. Today, I saw my uncle, who was recently diagnosed with cancer, possibly an agressive cancer, out for his 5-mile run. The man runs 5-miles a day, even with the possiblity of chemo, radiation and all that comes with his diagnosis. So if he can run, so can I, so to speak. I have an amazing life, not just the P's, but life in general. It took hearing from an old friend, that I need to be happy in a whole sense, not just the mommy-sense, for me to realize what I have before me. Yes, things are uncertain right now, but aren't they always? It takes that FAITH to wake up each morning, to go on each day and to make the most of life. I'm ready to do that, either on my own or with him. We'll see what life has in store.

Sometimes the statement "have faith" is so much easier said than done. What happens if you can't? I mean I can, but there are moments where the sadness consumes me and the faith seems so far out of reach. I know I have a lot to be grateful for, but there are so many things that have been just out of reach for such a long time that it hurts. Now, things are changing, probably for the better, most of the time I feel that way, but what if they're not? What if giving up is the wrong option?! How do I know what is? Nothing in life is ever easy, and that sucks. I could make it sound pretty and metaphorical but that is the plain and simple truth. How can I just stop being what I've known for 7 years? How can I stop taking my concerns back from God once I give them to him? And why does the hurt have to magnify with each decision?!

I'm so glad its fall. This is truly one of my most favorite times of year, that and the holidays of course. The girls are really getting into the fall feel as well. Piper is ready to go to the pumpkin patch and Parker is ready to be Tinkerbell for Halloween. Thankfully, we'll have our first true taste of fall this weekend. The girls and I have a have a bonfire to go tonight for my work and then our church has it's annual Fall Festival at a local corn maize Sunday night. I'm looking forward to making some great fall memories as a family.