Mama of 2 P's in a Pod

I t's been an hour since I put the girls to bed and they are still in the "every excuse to stay awake phase". Parker used to be our sleeper, she would go right to bed and not even bat an eye. Piper on the other hand is our night owl and has been since I was pregnant with her and worked nights. I know, it's our fault because we have given in every other time. I can't even tell you how many times I've allowed her to lay with me just so she wouldn't wake up her sister. We also tried the put Parker to bed first then Piper scenario, yeah that didn't work either. Since they share a room it's hard, when one is crying both are awake sometimes until the wee hours. SO here we are on night # 5 and they are still awake but at least in their room. We have to use the baby gate since their bedroom is so close to the stairs, but that thing helps us so much. Are we cruel for keepign them in there like animals? Not if it means sleep for mommy and daddy! I ho...

Here is Parker our little witch, she loves the broom and is crazy about the hat. Piper as Miss Daphne, not too sure about her in a wig...

Mama has a new role. Part of that new role is securing a good future for the P's and ensuring their happiness as well as mine. I've seen women around me who seem to have hearts of steel and strength that seems to endure everything. I pray that I will learn from these women and find that within myself. Life is not easy, but it's finding a way to enjoy what you have in front of you that makes it count. Sometimes what you thought you could believe in is no longer an option. But then you find something even better and more hopeful, and that makes it all worth the while. I believe in my ability to be the best mama to those girls. They are the loves of my life. So for now, it's me and the P's...living our lives to the fullest!

Sometimes, life has a funny way of catching up to you. Especially when you just tread water and hope it's enough to keep you a float. You have a choice, you can drown and take it all with you or you can yell out for help and hope someone has a life raft they can loan you. Right now, I'm swimming, with a direction in mind. A direction of finding the person I am, the person he is and the couple we are. I see the P's faces in my mind when I want to give up and they push me on. We'll see where this swimming takes us. It's going to be a long, hard swim but one that is worth every tear, every laugh and every stroke along the way. I pray we never go back to just treading water, our life together is much more than that.